im just sitting here on the couch at koste and arkaneskye ‘s place, and i just had this thought that goddamnit i spend so much time avoiding doing things.

u know when ur middle aged white dad says “you gotta do things the right way kid, no half-assing”?

well, i didn’t have a white dad but he said shit like that and goddamnit i cannot believe i think he’s right in this case ngl. he said that shit with condescension at the forefront of the interaction much of time… but he’s still right i think.

i just took a photo (with my camera, not my phone, so far so good). i wanted to post it so i looked over to my phone charging next to me on the couch and picked it up. i took the card out of my camera and found myself wishing i could just interface the card directly with my phone.

once i realized this wasn’t something i wanted to invest in (fuck dongle hell), i looked over at my backpack that i had just nicely put together. i thought to myself “fuckkk am i really gonna open that shit up and get my computer out just to post one photo?”

and fuck yes i am. i seek to do shit. not not do shit. where the fuck did i learn to not do shit.

im tired all the time.

im tired all the time, but i often avoid eating cause i have a shit relationship with eating cause i want to be thin. but i want to be thin so i can run around and post pictures and be hot and cool. and guess what.

i already run around and post pictures and be hot and cool.

so fuck u heres the picture i took i think its cool and i dont care if u like it or not

worth it, i know.

anyway love u this is just my diary.

-wilson