Lieber AJ,

my last Journal Entry for this Learning Challenge: Packed with heartfelt completion, resolution, and gratitude, a multidimensional mini-graduation if you want. ♾️

Before I share from my experience, lessons learned, and aspirations for coming adventures, I want to express my deepest gratitude to all my fellow adventurers who have supported me in so many ways. I continue to reflect on the indeed adventurous past 11 weeks. There is an aspiration alive in me to account for the gifts I have received in multiple domains. Perhaps, that will be the Synergistic Audit I couldn't commit to so far, even though it was one of the steps in the Learning Challenge. 🫠

For now, I send heaps of love and gratitude to Luke, who was brave enough to marry me; my Mutti mom, who traveled across the world to be with me and supported my right livelihood as best as she could; my dear friend Trent who has held the weekly synchronous learning circle with so much love and care; and to grandmother midi for meeting my limiting beliefs and perspectives with radical tenderness to help me go deeper inwards and see beyond the horizon. 🌈

The first time fundraising for my right livelihood has been an experience of liberation. I have learned that it takes much patience and honest discernment between my needs, my wants, and my wishes. Sustaining my right livelihood can only happen when I bring the willingness to take full responsibility for my actions and be free of any expectations towards others. To feel fully free is a long-haul journey.👣

Well, turns out, I have plenty of wishes, I want a few things, and I barely need anything. 🙃

One most notable outcome is that I am dancing in the field of trust. There are many layers of trust and I learned to wholeheartedly trust myself and the universe.

In my Journal Entry #3, I referred to Buckminster Fuller and his self-discipline to serve all humanity. Remember?

My understanding of this discipline is that as long as my honest intention is to wholeheartedly be in service of All Life, as opposed to seeking business-as-usual or traditional personal gain, I will have enough resources to sustain my right livelihood. I dare to say I attempt to spiral to a place of selflessness and being in reciprocal relationships. An adventure that can only happen when I embody my values from an honest heart and give generously without expecting anything in return. There is a difference between holding expectations and trusting. This deep self-trust, which I have never experienced, is here to help me to see my limiting beliefs for what they are. 🌻

This principle resonates most deeply when I reflect on my perceived struggles with sustaining my right livelihood while adventuring this Learning Challenge.

Only with the incredibly generous support of my loved ones - my family, my friends, and my community, I exceeded my fundraising goal for sustaining my right livelihood. I wouldn't have been able to come this far on my adventures without their selfless giving. I am deeply grateful and humbled.

Herzallerliebsten Dank! 💚

Adventuring the outer realms

Yes, PlanetHive is a Syntropic Enterprise: The source idea is pregnant with clarity. The evolutionary purpose is a gift of love in every sense of the word, and their pattern integrity speaks the silent language of Mother Earth and brings the invisible to light.

I now experience PlanetHive as a living entity that just started to hum. A wonderful feeling of alignment! Compared to the slime mold feeling from before. PlanetHive is definitely here to leave everything better.

One of the most beautiful outcomes of this learning challenge is my evolved relationship with PlanetHive. Thanks to the dialogue, mirroring and witnessing during the Learning Circle and beyond, I was able to break through some blockages and limiting beliefs I was holding around my role as the Steward Leader. 

There was an unnamed expectation I put on myself that blocked much of the energy inside me to flow: to have figured out every little detail of PlanetHive by the end of this Learning Challenge. I found myself caught in a web of expectations which at one point moved my attention away from learning and experiencing the adventure towards delivering something as an outcome, forgetting to trust in the precessional effect. 👀 

My mind trapped me in a scarcity mindset. I needed to remind myself to appreciate what is here and respond to the emergence. I need to let go of so much more of the old ways of being, understanding and doing. 

I am so utterly excited about all that I have received and I am curious to learn more about what it means to organize as a hive. There is so much we can learn from Tetragonula bees, from all bees, well from All Life. 🐝

AJ, I guess you can sense the freed-up energy sprinkling in and around me that is exhilarating and gives me new space to continue to grow. Even though, or perhaps because I can feel the vastness and beauty of the sprinkles like ocean spray on my sun-kissed face, I will pause my journeys in the Outer realms for the coming Six weeks to go deeper into my inner realms. Oh yes, it is indeed tempting to continue adventuring this manifestation! However, it feels very right, true, and beautiful to immerse me in my heightened sense of simply being.

Adventuring the inner realms

I will now travel through Aotearoa New Zealand to say Ka kite anō! Bis bald! See you again! to the beautiful lands that have given me so much over the past Seven years. Here I have found my sacred bond with Papatūānuku Mother Earth again. A true sense of belonging that was always there, hidden deep inside me. I’ve been crying countless wild tears of grief and gratitude as I found this treasure of unconditional love in my heart radiating out into every cell of my body, which will give me the strength and openness I need to renew the relationship with my birthplace, essentially an old new bioregion I am about to meet.

I can hear the calling of ancient relationships that want to be awakened in their reciprocity when I am about to adventure my old home in the Northern Hemisphere. A calling I wouldn’t have been able to receive without all that I have received in my new home in the Southern Hemisphere.

My intuitive knowing helps me to see that to help manifest love and trust for a syntropic future, I need to travel my past. The Venus Retreat in Gene Keys has invited me to contemplate the first three seven-year cycles of my life, starting with my teenage years (21-14) and going back to the beginnings of my creation.

What better place to dance in this emergence than where my roots are? I don’t know what any of that means. However, there is an inherent relationship with my birthplace, which I am curious to explore. I will try to find a deeper connection with my ancestors and my Heimatland homeland, Brandenburg in Germany.

I feel fully supported and ready to create more space within to receive even more fully.

These past months I’ve been lucky enough to experience glimpses of that emptiness. Didn't I write to you about this place, AJ? I described it as small, clean, and spacious deep inside me.

It is pulsing and expanding as it cracks through an invisible shell, fuelled by the intimate connection I can hold in my relationships with all life. Only with openness in my heart, I can sustain this intimacy. The more I listen to and follow my heart, the more I can release, and energies can move freely through me to embody honesty and compassionate kindness.

I continue to learn to integrate spiritual practices into my daily life for the muddy waters to clear for me to truly look at the essential current of pain and love that is moving underneath. Practices I am eager to inhabit when coming into relationship with my homeland because they are a strengthening force for my well-being.

It is also my contemplative mind that is calling me inwards. I can describe it as a palpable inner force that allows me to be patient and wholeheartedly connected with Mother Earth. It has often been so challenging for me to safely express what is happening in my inner realms. My open heart has helped me in so many ways on this path of learning to communicate in radical tenderness. I now hold a hint of capacity to transform triggers and traumas inwards instead of projecting them outwards. A spiraling space-giving experience I never want to miss anymore. ♾️

Thanks giving and closing words

The weekly circle has been a stable point for me. It was a joy to adventure with so many wonderful humans. I found myself contemplating the essence of learning in community on this pathway, synchronous and asynchronous. For me, it was sometimes challenging to sustain a syntropic energy field in this multi-week learning challenge. The presence of everyone, including you AJ, helped me stay at ease when I was braving entropy. If your heart starts giving you a warm sense, then know that this gratitude of mine is yours to receive. 🌈

I want to give honorable heART thanks to Trent for his awe-inspiring NFT gift and Lady Daya for her most beautiful Visionary Frequency 'Adventuring'.

I have grown, and PlanetHive has grown! And there is nothing else for me to generate or manifest right now! I am grateful that I have arrived where I arrived. PlanetHive is one of the most beautiful living entities that has entered my web of life and has gently but persistently invited me to be their steward leader. Once I have arrived at my birthplace, I am willing to tune even more into the universe to guide me in stewarding PlanetHive’s evolutionary journey.💞

Aroha mai. Aroha atu.

Liebe geben. Liebe empfangen.

Love giving. Love receiving.

Kath 💚

HeArted on the lands of Taranaki Whānui ki Te Upoko o Te Ika, I wish to acknowledge them as tangata whenua, the people of the land.

🗺️ Visit Native-Land.ca to learn more about the ancestors of the lands and waterways where you live, work, and play.

heART: Frequency FreqVE 'Adventuring’ by Lady Daya and photo of cuckoo by Rajukhan Pathan via pexels