As grow up, i gradually realized that NOthing (which can be solved by money or resources) is a big deal. Why we call a man as a dynamic being is becoz he/she always have a "next". A "next" that could change what is now. Whatever change must be a good one, whatever road it leads must be a unique scene.

The money we spent doesn't exist, what do exist are your intention spending the money; the things involves in your intention of spending that money. Or more generally speaking, the actions you made at request around your intention, that exist.

So i seldom think about the money i spent, becoz i knew that's only a symbol/sign, only as a start of something i really want to do.

Also it means i seldom eye on the things without an intention, let alone making exchange. I don't need more idle items to occupy my limited survival space, nor do i aspire for any inappropriate attention.

There is no such thing as more money, more resources you will achieve the intention more quick, 'what's the intention' is a primitive question. Keep defining it as 'what it is' is hard. You can control it, or being controlled.

I don't have freedom, then i knew what i want is Freedom. I want it but in my own context. Life constantly confines one in borders, in limited resources to incentivize the desperate desire of something you really want.

2022.3.21