I have fallen off my weekly post schedule after just three weeks. I guess I’m just undisciplined like that. Or, as my human design report (lol) describes it, I am “multi-passionate” and need “freedom and flexibility'“.

I’ve been drawing a lot more as this year begins. iPad and procreate are probably the best purchases I’ve made in a while.

It’s become increasingly challenging for me to engage in all these NFT discords I’m part of. I guess it only took me less than a month to feel overwhelmed and unmotivated. I’ve just let all the notifications pile up and as the notifications pile up I just feel less willing to connect.

I guess there’s a couple of things making me feel a bit meh about all these discords. There are a few projects launching this month that were on my watchlist, but we are at this stage where hype and demand are higher than ever. Projects try to manage this with presale and mint lists, but as a participant you need to jump through so many hoops to get into that list. I know the rhetoric is that they want to reward engaged community members who contribute to building the community, but I really don’t understand how people can have so much ENERGY to be participating in discord activities around the clock. It really doesn’t help that I’m in a different timezone than most of the mainstream projects and I just would rather get my 7 hours of sleep.

I know having a presale list is supposed to help manage the demand and avoid gas wars, but I really don’t think it’s an effective way to improve inclusion, at least not how the presale lists are being built now. I know I know I know it’s really hard to build a community and get traction and visibility, which is why the incentives are designed in that way, and maybe I’m just overly whiny about it.

• Discord exp farming: Having an active discord chat is good, but I feel like this incentivises forced and trivial conversations. As someone who can’t possibly be staring at discord all the time, it’s also really difficult for me to insert myself into a chat with regulars saying hi to each other and talking about god knows what.
• Like, retweet, tag three friends: Shared ownership and embedded promotion on socials is important. Maybe I’m just salty that I don’t have three friends I am comfortable with spamming with my tags on twitter. To be honest, I created my current twitter account because I know this is a common mechanic used by NFT projects for promotion and I would need to do all these things if I want to get on presale lists or win giveaways. But as I build my twitter and curating my newsfeed, it became more apparent to me that I would rather prioritise more genuine and sincere content.
• Raffles and lucky draws: I was staring at the marbles and trying to visualise myself winning during one of those twitch streams at 1am one day and I just realise OH GOD I AM SO TIRED OF THIS. Sorry I have nothing else to say but it’s just way tiring.

I do like some of the other initiatives like fan art, commentary based giveaways. I realise the underlying question I had on all this is just.. what VALUE are we creating.. with all this. Are we just creating noise and shouting into a void.. or what is the point of everything. I felt so exhausted. Not like I was trying very hard to begin with.

So I started disconnecting from all this. Not like in the conscious or deliberate “I’m taking a social media break” way, just gradually letting myself off the hook for not being on top of everything. Started to just sit on my sofa and draw (while watching some brainless soap or resident evil game plays) instead of watching for discord updates or mint notifications.

It doesn’t help that I’ve made some not so good calls on buys and sells over the past few weeks. Or that the first few weeks back to work have been a total nightmare.

I don’t know. This post is just for me to whine. Okay?

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