Mood: Wary

I’m so indecisive and highly suspicious of everything. There is a constant battle going on inside my head between knowing what I want and doing things simply to make other people happy.

I am the textbook definition of a people pleaser and most content when everyone else is good. I want everybody to be happy and unbothered. I want everybody to like me. I never make myself the center of attention and instead I allow others to fill that space.

But the truth is, i’m not that shy. And i’m definitely no altruist. I just want everything to feel easy and I will submit to whatever is necessary to keep it that way.

This lifestyle definitely has it’s pros and cons. For example, I’ve never “gotten my way” via brute force. Instead, I find myself convincing other people that they came up with the idea to do whatever it is that I want to do. People love it when it’s their idea.

Wait maybe that’s manipulation?

Omg am I low key the villain??