The more you care, the more you have to lose. That's what my therapist told me after I broke up with my girlfriend of six years. She said I had invested too much emotionally in the relationship and that I needed to learn to detach myself from things that could hurt me. I thought she was crazy. How could I not care about someone I loved so much? How could I not care about the memories we shared, the plans we made, the dreams we had? How could I not care about the cute little mole on her left cheek, the way she laughed at my jokes, the way she kissed me goodnight?

But then I realized she was right. Caring too much had made me lose everything. Not only did I lose my girlfriend, but I also lost my job, my friends, my hobbies, my self-esteem. I had become so obsessed with making her happy that I neglected everything else in my life. I had become so dependent on her that I couldn't function without her. I had become so afraid of losing her that I pushed her away with my jealousy and insecurity.

So now I'm trying to care less. I'm trying to care less about what people think of me, what they say about me, what they do to me. I'm trying to care less about the past, the future, the present. I'm trying to care less about myself.

But it's hard. It's hard to care less when you've cared so much. It's hard to care less when you still love someone who doesn't love you back. It's hard to care less when you still have feelings that won't go away.

Maybe someday I'll learn to care less. Maybe someday I'll be able to laugh again, to smile again, to live again. Maybe someday I'll be able to love again.

But until then, I'll just keep caring more.