IÂ want to share my third experience with psilocybin mushrooms which occurred at the end of 2021. This particular experience happened during a period of my life when I was deeply involved in the production of my film, The Keys. Today, I would like to discuss the profound insights I gained from this trip, which hold significant value.
Background
To provide some context, I had just completed a three-day shoot for, The Keys. From both logistical and mental standpoints, this film proved to be the most challenging project I had ever undertaken. The film's subject matter revolves around themes of death, guilt, and depression, adding to the complexity of the shoot.
Most of the filming took place in a beach house owned by one of the actors in New Jersey. This actor is a close friend who entrusted me with the responsibility of caring for the house and ensuring it remained in its original condition after the shoot. After wrapping up the production, I stayed an extra day to decompress and reflect on the journey. I had brought mushrooms with me for relaxation purposes, although I hesitated initially due to being alone. However, a strong urge pushed me to proceed with taking them.
The Trip
During this mushroom trip, I felt like an entity was guiding me through a profound experience. There was a voice, unfamiliar to my own, inside my mind, directing me where to go and what to observe and providing valuable lessons. As I mentioned in my previous mushroom experience, an entity imparted information to me, but this time, it felt more like a guided tour of wisdom.
In the initial part of the trip, I decided to lie outside in the sun near the water. As I basked in the sunlight, I could sense its energy radiating throughout my body, rejuvenating me both mentally and physically. I found myself contemplating old friendships that had slowly drifted away, wondering if I would ever see those friends again. The entity responded by telling me that these friends were here to teach me valuable lessons. While some may no longer play a significant role in my life, others would return when the time was right. Suddenly, the conversation took an unexpected turn as the entity revealed the alarming increase in infertility rates that women would experience in the coming years. This infertility was attributed to external factors in society. The entity conveyed that those who find God would experience miracles and be cared for. Overwhelmed by this revelation, I decided to retreat indoors.
As I calmed myself, the voice instructed me to examine a painting resting on a chair. I will attach a photo for reference.
My girlfriend specifically created this painting for the film, and it remains one of my favorite pieces she has ever made. It hangs above my bed. Previously, I had viewed the painting as depicting a storm of darkness engulfing everything in its path. However, as I sat there, the entity urged me to consider perspective. What if the light was seeping through the darkness? In other words, what if the light was triumphing over darkness? The entity conveyed the importance of perspective in shaping our actions and the reality we choose to inhabit. At that moment, I realized the immense power our minds hold in shaping our reality and determining how we respond to life's situations.
Next, the entity directed my attention to another artwork created by one of the actors in the film. The actor graciously allowed us to incorporate this piece into the film. As I gazed at the painting, I felt as though I were delving deeper into the artist's mind, accessing layers of their soul meant to be guarded. However, I found myself entering these forbidden areas, gaining a better understanding of the real person behind the actor's mask. It seemed that I had absorbed all the knowledge I was meant to gain from this exploration, as the voice then instructed me to enter the bedroom.
Inside the bedroom, the entity guided me to lie down and close my eyes. As I did, various fantasies surfaced in my mind. The entity emphasized that fantasies should remain as they are—fantasies—and should not be entertained. At that point, it was time to step outside and breathe in some fresh air. The final part of the trip was spent lying under the sun as I began to feel a bit overwhelmed by the abundance of information I had received. This mushroom trip turned out to be more of an educational experience than I had anticipated. While I was lying down, the entity conveyed that sometimes I need to listen better to my intuition. Initially unsure of what the entity meant, I sought clarification. It responded by telling me to go to the dock. I chuckled at this as I was reluctant to leave my comfortable spot. Nevertheless, the entity insisted. I got up and went to the dock, where I found a boat. Looking down, I noticed a sign with a message that I'll keep to myself. The entity concluded by saying, "I'm always here; you just need to listen better." With that, the mushroom trip came to an end. I remember being speechless, yet a sense of hope and faith in the universe washed over me.
Reflection
This profound mushroom trip proved to be a truly transformative experience, as I discovered myself being guided by an entity that imparted valuable lessons and insights. One significant aspect of this journey was the profound realization and acceptance of drifting apart from many friends over the years. The issue of friendships fading away had carried a heavy burden of guilt within me, but during this experience, I felt a profound sense of peace and understanding wash over me.
It was during this trip that I finally comprehended the truth behind a saying that had eluded me until that very moment: "People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime." The entity's guidance and the insights I gained enabled me to embrace the transient nature of relationships and recognize that not all connections are meant to last forever. Some friendships serve a specific purpose, others accompany us for a certain period of growth and change, while a few rare gems become lifelong companions.
This newfound understanding brought me a deep sense of liberation and released from the burden of guilt I had carried for so long. I realized that it was natural for friendships to evolve, shift, and even fade away, and it did not diminish the value of the experiences and memories shared during those connections. Each person who has entered my life, whether they stayed for a brief moment or accompanied me for an extended period, has contributed to my growth, learning, and personal journey. I will always love them for that.
Throughout the journey, I delved into the significance of perspective, realizing that it plays a pivotal role in shaping our reality and influencing how we respond to life's challenges. The power of our minds became evident as I understood how our thoughts and perceptions could shape our experiences. Reflecting on this experience, I now realize that during that period of my life, I was grappling with an episode of depression that had subtly permeated my work on the film. However, as the mushroom trip unfolded, it was as if a lightbulb went off in my brain, illuminating a path that would lead me back to emotional well-being and a renewed appreciation for life itself. The profound insights gained from this journey catalyzed me to recalibrate and realign my perspective, enabling me to overcome the depths of despair and find new purpose and vitality.
Regrettably, I cannot make unequivocal claims regarding the absolute accuracy of the information conveyed to me during the mushroom trip, particularly concerning the fertility issue. It parallels the uncertainty I addressed in my previous letter, where the entity spoke of potential alterations to our DNA. Only time will reveal whether a fertility issue will affect women in the future. However, it is worth noting that although I hesitate to label it as a fertility issue, there have been economic and societal factors influencing the decision of individuals to forego having children. America's declining population growth is a genuine concern with significant implications. While I acknowledge the validity of concerns regarding declining birth rates, it is crucial to approach the topic cautiously and recognize the issue's multifaceted nature. Various socio-economic factors, changing cultural norms, and individual choices intertwine to shape decisions related to family planning. It is crucial to delve deeper into the complexities of this phenomenon and consider the diverse reasons contributing to the decline in birth rates.
Lastly, the mushroom trip underscored the significance of seeking a connection with the divine and heeding our intuition. The entity's message resonated, emphasizing the solace and guidance that can be found through spiritual exploration and tapping into our inner wisdom. It prompted me to reflect on the importance of cultivating a sense of spirituality and intuition in our daily lives. I must confess that distinguishing between intuition and the ego can sometimes be challenging. However, this trip raised questions about the source of the messages received during the journey and who exactly I was communicating with. Was it my higher self, a manifestation of my subconscious, or something beyond my comprehension? Exploring these questions can lead one down a thought-provoking rabbit hole, and it may require delving into areas of the unknown that can be both fascinating and daunting. Contemplating the nature of these experiences also invites reflection on my previous encounters with entities during psychedelic journeys. Who were these beings, and what was their role in guiding me? While I may not have definitive answers, the mere act of questioning opens up a world of possibilities and expands our understanding of consciousness and the interconnectedness of all things.
It is worth noting that this mushroom trip held a unique significance for me as it marked a turning point in my relationship with psychedelics. Reflecting on the insights gained from this journey and my previous ones, I felt a profound sense of fulfillment and completion. It became apparent that the guidance and wisdom I sought could now be accessed within myself, rendering external substances unnecessary. The transformative nature of this experience allowed me to transcend the reliance on mushrooms, recognizing that the growth and exploration I desired could be pursued through inner introspection and personal development.
