I’m told-and I agree-that I tend to over-intellectualize emotion.

That tendency prevents, hinders, blocks the raw experience.

When I catch myself doing that, it’s frustrating.

It’s also scary because it feels like failure.

It feels heavy in my shoulders, like “oh man, here’s another burden I have to carry around. Another thing I should be good at…but I’m not.”

And sometimes, it hits me like a shock, emanating from my heart outwards.

And that’s when I recognize, “wow, I’m sitting in it”…and then the experience is gone and the over-intellectualization begins again.

Funny how the cycle works sometimes.