There are many lonely and difficult moments. I rely on this sentence to support myself. I hope it can also comfort you, "don't be sad, what you have lost will return in another form"—— Yixin
Recently, I am too busy at work. I have to review my exams after work. When I am so sleepy, I feel that life is loveless. In the wechat group of test friends, everyone is the same. Before going to bed, someone always tells a few stories, and a group of people reply with a mess of symbols and expressions to relieve pressure.
My high school deskmate Xiaoyou is also in the group. She never tells jokes and doesn't reply "ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha No one else knows her, but I am too familiar with that feeling. It is the same as in the classroom ten years ago.
In high school, Xiao you was poor at math. There are 60 people in the class. Her total score is in the top ten, but she can rank in the bottom ten in mathematics.
After the math teacher repeatedly called Xiaoyou to the office and explained the problems over and over again, Xiaoyou still looked confused. Even the math teacher gave up.
At the end of another final exam, Xiao you looked at the failing number on the score list and silently pulled me to the playground for a run. On the red plastic track, the wind was strong, so I didn't see whether the tears on her cheeks were dried by the wind. I just remember the two people gasping in the warm and cold dry air in the early spring of the north.
We all hated youth at that time. Youth is too difficult. It is even more difficult for those who are poor in mathematics. It is even more difficult for those who are poor in mathematics but make progress like Xiaoyou. I know that the most sad thing for her is not the number of the students who failed, but the expression that the teacher gave up completely.
After that day, Xiaoyou seems to have changed. She used to be afraid to enter the math office. She stayed there every time she went to the self-study class and begged the math teacher to explain the problems to her. She used the most stupid method - reciting formulas, doing problems, reciting formulas, doing problems, reciting formulas, doing problems
She brought a lunch box every day. She didn't go home for dinner before the evening self-study. All the time she saved was doing math problem sets. She had little rest after class and even trotted all the way to the bathroom. Because there are several other subjects to review, so she can only squeeze out the time after class and other people's rest time to tutor math.
I almost forgot how I spent my high school life, but I still remember Xiao you crouching at the desk every time I entered the classroom. No matter how much we quarreled around, she was as calm as a cucumber, either staring at a pile of wrong numbered papers in front of her, or staring at another blank paper in front of her.
In Xiaoyou's college entrance examination results, mathematics is still a lagging subject, but she got the highest score in the three years of high school and the only passing score. For many people, this achievement at their fingertips means countless sleepless mornings and the break time when Xiaoyou sits on his seat like a sculpture.
Later, we went to different universities. I went to graduate school in China, and Xiao you went to the United States. Our track gradually drifted away, and the connection slowly became weak.
Not until we added wechat some time ago did I know that she changed her major from business administration to international accounting when she was a graduate student. Now she works in one of the world's four largest accounting firms and has become a certified public accountant who "lives on numbers".
She often worked overtime until the early morning. She was extremely busy, but full. She said to me: "Do you know? Every time I look at the bright night in the city and feel the distant sound of the waves, I know that many years ago, when I was at recess, I didn't even drink enough water to save the time to go to the toilet. The time I spent doing math problems foolishly was not in vain. Fate didn't defeat me. I finally got the harvest, although I waited so long. Everything I paid for math was even lost Everything that has gone has quietly returned. "
I nearly shed tears for her words, because we all had many silly times, and we all insisted on being dull and desperate. Fate never gave a clear omen, nor promised a blue sea and blue sky after a storm. Fortunately, what we have lost and given has returned to life in another form.
A girl I followed on Weibo, R_ Xu_, She looks like a lovely Lori, but she has the will of an iron man.
From "sports Xiaobai" who could not run 400 meters when she was reading to "fitness expert" who could easily complete a marathon, from a weak little girl to a member of the International Karate Federation, she said that since she decided to change, only she knew the hardships and hardships along the way.
Others asked her why she had so much time to exercise. She admitted that she was a busy stewardess, and often came home after the plane landed in the early morning. But even so, she woke up early and rushed to the gym for exercise. She never advertised and called on a group of fans to get up early. She only said: "even if I go to bed late in the morning, I will get up before 8 o'clock, because I don't want to live up to every good morning."
In her microblog photos, in addition to her young and beautiful figure, she also has her own hands full of blood bubbles for practice. But she never suffered from it, but took it as a way to temper her will and decompress herself. She is not an athlete, just an ordinary person, but she said, "when I can stand up with a 40kg body carrying a 70kg barbell, what pressure can I not face?"
When a fan confessed to the hard work of fitness, her words healed many people. She said: "don't worry about others drinking beer and eating fried chicken, while you can only eat tasteless healthy food. While others are shopping and watching movies, you are sweating in the gym. Don't be sad, what you have lost will return in another form."
What I know is that she has a soft face like cherry blossom petals, a slim, healthy and strong body, and the sincere and warm love of countless fitness fans. In the camp of all beauties such as models, actors and singers, she is fresh and beautiful, so unique and powerful.
So looking at so many strong and diligent people, I quietly opened the review reference books.
Once we hated youth and thought it was too difficult to be young. But now, in retrospect, if there were no time for those who stayed up late to read, or those who wandered alone in a foreign land, how could we become who we are today? Although today's self is still imperfect, it is enough to support a leisurely life.
Yes, countless dear children, even if you want to wear the stars and the moon, even if you have nothing to depend on, you still have to go bravely. Don't be sad, what you have lost will return in another form.
Those pains and heartbreaks, those tiredness and despair, have been silently remembered by fate. It doesn't have time to give you equal praise, applause, admiration and glory, but don't give up. They will always return in the way you dreamed of.