“I need HELP”

Being able to say this out loud to another human being might be the absolute biggest barrier to me making progress in any area of my life.

From needing to fix the running toilet to needing therapy.

In my past- not being able to ask for help- has completely stopped me dead in my tracks- Stuck.

I think it comes from some really deep-rooted things such as my own upbringing, what I think society expects of me, thinking that it effects my stance in life as a “man” and that asking for help knocks me down some levels on ability, dependability, reliability, responsibility, knowledge, etc.

The paradox to this is that I can’t be a “Good Man in society” with Abilities – without being Taught. And the only way to be taught, is to learn. One of the best ways to learn- is to ask someone that knows how- for help.

I let myself go into the deepest darkest place in my life because I thought that asking for help with my mental health and substance abuse was absolute and complete failure.

I thought that this failure would lead to all the worst scenarios including bankruptcy, my kids being taken away, house taken away, losing my job, etc.

When In fact - NOT getting help was, and would ultimately be, what led me to those worst-case scenarios.

My Failure, or so I saw it, actually taught me the greatest gift of all- and that was Surrendering.

The gift of complete desperation allowed me to put my hands up and Surrender.
Although I did not know at the time what that was- all I knew was that I was finally putting myself in other people’s hands, asking for help, and was all done fighting.

That is one form of Surrender, and my first introduction to it.

It all started with Asking for Help- then Accepting that Help- and following through.
Today I Surrender to that fact that I Need Help.

“It takes a Village to raise a child”

I AM that Child- and I NEED a Village.